i cant think of any other words that can explain my feelings right now its just weird people saying i disappeared yea kind of there are many many reasons and i dont know which one is the most suitable and reasonable
first my dog was found having cancer in his left ear i just couldnt believe this is happening i cried i wanted to stop time i wished to go back to the time when he was little but it turned out wishes wouldnt happen hes finished operations currently but still undergoing tough time thats why i want to stay at home and spend more time with him when hes weak
second im going to Switzerland on Wednesday yea for a 9 days trip i have to spend time on preparation like getting everything out of my closet or shops with money it means a lot to me and i really dont want to waste any moment during my trip i have many plans like taking loads of photos and videos the problem is i have to figure out what im going to carry with me the result is basically hard to believe my Olympus DSLR x 1 my Holga X 1 my Samsung DC X 1 my newly bought Fujifilm Instax 200 X 1 my newly bought Sony HD DV X 1 plus Tripod batteries chargers films memory cards and many many more thats right goddamn heavy but what im going to do is bring them and use them
third i dont want to spend money well its not like any part of me you may say but somehow maybe i have changed or maybe i just have spent too much on stuffs that i dont need and im so tired of it right now or maybe i have spent way too much on photography especially the HD DV obviously the third maybe has the highest probability
fourth im playing RollerCoaster Tycoon 3 way too mcuh and dont want to stop thats hilarious but it is apparently addictive
fifth it has been raining and raining and i start hating rain again and again
sixth the broadband connection is 80% dead
seventh im lazy thats the truth thank you
omg perhaps i have been shutting myself up for too long feel like want to type and type non-stop i will be so glad if youre still reading and if you are please leave me a comment or send me a SMS so that you have a gift from me when im back lol
anyway i just want to tell everybody im fine and say thank you to anyone who is that nice to think of me for any single second when im not somewhere around you :)
Friday, 12 December 2008
Cause I'm a young heart living in a world filled with love,
so when tear drops fall from me like rain from above,
I can brush my troubles away,
know that deep down inside,
I've got sun shinin in my life.